THINGS YOU DIDNT KNOW ABOUT ME
OR THAT I DIDNT KNOW YOU KNEW ABOUT ME.
im stubborn.
im beyond stubborn. maybe you do know this, maybe you've experienced it firsthand. i hate being told im wrong even if i am, and i hate losing an argument more than anything. its gotten me into shit before.. not trouble i guess but just into umm uncomfortable situations. when it comes to fighting, im pretty much never the first to say sorry; my pride is large and painful to swallow. and im world champion at holding grudges, dont try me.
i love music more than most sane people.
i do, i do i do i do. i have a thing for lyrics, kinda like my thing for legs hahaha. in a day i can learn the words to a song, but if you spoke the words to me it wouldnt be the same. not at all. when you put the lyrics to a melody, its like breaking down the door to a house of um feelings haha. instead of just leaving the catflap open. yknow? i wish i could put down what i was thinking in words whenever i wanted, or needed to. it must feel amazing to write a song and know itll spark feelings in people, simply from the words you strung together with a tune.
im a hyprocrite.
huh. probably. i expect too much from people. my mind works funny, cos it lets me think that because "people" dont live up to these expectations, i dont have to either. my brain rationalises until i have the reasoning to do whatever i want.
i dont believe in much of anything
though i respect that other people do. i dont always understand the whole religion thing i suppose, which is strange considering the fact i went to a catholic school until the end of year 5. if i had had a choice of what school to attend at the age of 5 i probably wouldve just asked for whichever had a bigger playground, but in hindsight im not sure being forced into OLMC was such a good thing. i dont, and never have, put my trust and faith into some higher being, some so-called God. i sat through the daily RE lessons, mass each friday, the prayers before and after .. well, everything. i tried to learn, be open-minded, but maybe its against my nature to put so much of myself into something i cant see with my own eyes or feel with my own hands. and so far when it comes to people, i dont think i believe in love either. its just a word, right?
im emotionally unstable
as you've most likely gathered. no seriously, i think i might be bipolar or something. this doesnt need some paragraph-long explanation. emotions suck, i just cant seem to keep them in check.
i love secrets.
i love knowing them, keeping them, having them. like a star in your pocket that nobody else knows about haha. im not really sure WHY i used to be one of those people that had to know absolutely everything, to the point of nagging and being overly pushy. i hate people like that though, so im working on the "tellmetellmetellme" attitude. i think people tell me more when i dont ask tbh.
my friends are my everything.
my friends are my everything.
/ julie.
saturday, november 29, 2k8
10:04pm.
Saturday, November 29, 2008
ninetyfour.
