i suppose i swear a lot. i get obsessed with silly things, and im more comfortable talking to strangers than i am talking to my family. its easy for me to start friendships/relationships but i find the hard part is usually maintaining them. i pick up on song lyrics pretty quickly. i dont like being anywhere thats too quiet, or too clean. i am a full time procrastinator. i can absolutely hate someone, yet still want them to like me. anything will make me laugh, everything makes me worry, but not much makes me cry. i can be enormously close-minded. anger is usually my undoing. i would give away all my clothes and books before giving away my blanket. im inconsistent in everything i do and everything i am. except my bathroom habits, which are consistently strange. my computer has about 13058 viruses. i can be greedy, mostly when it comes to meat. sometimes i get this funny itchy feeling in my chest and i dont know what it is. i give names to the majority of my posessions. theres only about one day a month where i'll let other people take photos of me. i prefer to be behind the camera than in front of it. i am fussy and demanding. unless i ask for help, i hate when people tell me what to do or how to do it. i could love you, hang on your every word, and you would never know. im not usually scared of confrontation, but i jump to conclusions a lot. i wear size 6 shoes. i dont co-ruminate (like they talked about in cosmo), i just ruminate. ive told someone i was a recovering anorexic to get out of trouble for eating a bigmac in myers. i wish i could write love songs. i think people with jet black hair and bright green eyes are the gorgeousest. only justine realised the underlying meaning. i dont believe in a god, but yours would frown at the amount of electricity i use. i have a hidden talent. i also have a thing for ribs, and alexa chung. at one point, i knew all the words to "i must be emo", "fergalicious" and the candy mountain song. i still know all the words to "gotta ketchum all". ive learnt not to be overly dependent on any one person, for anything. ive never learnt a lesson the "easy way", always the hard. i would humiliate myself to make a sad friend smile. i would probably humiliate myself to make a happy friend happier. i still cant believe i was the only one who laughed out loud when mr kearney said "equity hat" in legal studies. ive had lots of weird nicknames, like "giggles" or "pimple". i want to be good at 20 languages, but im not good at any. i want to be good at 20 instruments, but im not good at any of those either. i really really dont like cats. i think taylor swift is wrong. my birthday is on the same day as hitlers, which i think explains a lot. hamish from hamish and andy has a nice laugh. i can do logarit`hms. i find it hard to sleep when my room is silent. britney spears once woke me up at 3 in the morning. if its green and looks like jelly, ill probably eat it. i touch my hair a lot, like all the time. my 10 year old cousin knows roman numerals better than i do. i dont believe in horoscopes but i read them anyway. most mornings, i dont need to brush my hair. 5 days is the longest my room has ever stayed tidy, and i was at camp. i put toys in pillowcases and call them "baby". i have to have a nap most afternoons. i dont wait for cars to pass, cars wait for me. sometimes when i listen to music, my breathing or my steps change pace to match the song. im secure with being insecure. everybody tells me i sound different on the phone, and that i "waddle". i am uncontrollably, unexplainably, and unrelentingly clumsy. i think people who dont eat meat are strange. there are exactly 4 people who would be able to sway my opinion on anything. in year 5, i broke a boys nose. a lot of the time im not sure if im controlling my feelings or ignoring them. i can be really shallow. teachers dont like me because i sleep in class but still do reasonably well in tests. when i start talking about how im the tallest person in the world, humour me. i hate corny/mushy/sappy. im a pretty good liar. orange lollies are my favourite. most of the time, you can gauge how close i feel to someone by how often i feel like calling them names eg "hello uglyperson/slutface/bitch." both my memory and my hearing are absolutely shocking. i love the freckle on my lip. kevin thinks im really good at writing acrostic poems. i get dejavu a lot, and dream almost every night. i am thoroughly in love with david copperfield. i know what im going to name my kids. feet and bellybuttons weird me out. i do stuff like this when im bored, or i sit alone and talk into a fan.
NATALIE
happy sweet 16th, bunny. you give me the best kind of toothache.
i love you love you love you love you even if you do make me eat gum wax.
/ julie.
friday, 3rd april, 2k9
6:34pm.
Friday, April 3, 2009
# 119 - selfanaylsis, and birthday wishes for a girl i adore.
