i dont think i get online often enough to even blog about daily happenings anymore. leads to long long posts that im sick of writing and you're all sick of reading. so yknow. i did wanna talk about a few specific things though.
first of all, http.skxdlux.blogspot.com.
everybody was talking about it. i figure i dont really have the right to say things like "that person was wasting their time", "they must have no friends" etc because as syd so bluntly pointed out to me one business studies lesson as i read the blogs, "youre just as bad as they are for taking so much interest." but its true. people left hundreds of comments on these posts, people who dont even go to hurlstone. all these people saying things like "why dont you go and make some friends instead of wasting your life on this stupid blog bitching about other people" ... what are you doing? so yeah. i dont really know when but the blogs been taken down, good riddance.
second: coping.
ive observed lately that everybody has different ways of coping with their feelings whether its regret, anger or just stress. for example, the new kids. we met 3 new girls this year. i can say reasonably surely that all of them miss (or missed) their old schools. we have courtney - who talks to us about it, and makes sure she still spends time with her mates from thomas hassle. next we have lyn - who i thought fit in well when she first came here, but lately shes been withdrawn from the larger group. i can tell things here at hurlstone are really different from what shes used to at busby. we sit around in big rowdy groups whereas at busby they probably hung out in small but close-knit circles. thirdly, emily - who left. went back to freeman. im thinking it was a kinda drastic thing to do seeing as she hadnt been here all that long at all before jetting off. i guess she just wasnt bothered going through all the notions of getting to know new people when she already knew so well the people at her old school. people are funny like that.
third: what people think.
im beginning to realise how much this matters to some people, most people. everybody has to care a little bit, right? or else they wouldnt make friends, build relationships. i figure if you hate yourself enough, you find it easier all the time to be somebody you've made up. if people get to know the real you; your strengths, your weaknesses, isnt it easier for them to hurt you? but if you have to keep lying and faking and pretending, one day youre going to slip up. then where are you? i know people who have to act all the time because they want to be some kind of flawless, not even theirs but everyone elses epitome of perfect. i just dont see why.
holidays.
theyre so close, i can smell them. tomorrow is the beginning of the end of this term. then the holidays. it hasnt even begun to hit me that the exams are RIGHT after the break, but i think it will hit me eventually. i think it will hit me quite hard. in the nose. until then, i can wait happily for I.D, for my birthday, for all the free time i'll waste instead of studying.
today is actually natalies birthday so, again, happy birthday.
this has been a very random blog, i know. isnt it great?
/ julie.
sunday, 5th april, 2k9
3:55 pm.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
#120
