ok, so. just got back from a long and tedious family dinner. food? acceptable. company? not so much. i swear i cant leave the house without having an argument with my mum, shes so infuriating. even when we dont leave the house we're at eachothers necks.
i was waiting for her to get ready so we could leave, so i pulled out my pe media scrapbook and flip through it. she comes in after a bit and asks if im studying for my school certificate exams. "nah."
"whats that then?"
"pe scrapbook. did you know you lose 10 - 15% more weight if you take a walk 45 minutes after eating?"
"well you dont need to worry about stuff like that anyway."
for a minute i thought she had decided to maybe read some book on good parenting and nurturing your kids. could it be true that she actually does love me, and accepts me the way i am? *hopeful* then i realise what she really means is that i dont need to worry about "stuff like that" because im MEANT to be worrying about sc. mm good.
then dinner. so we're sitting at the table, me, her and the boyfriend. theyre talking blahhhh blah blah while some fat chick sings celine dion in the background. we went milano btw, near lansvale hotel. pretty swanky place. so im listening to my ipod and after completely ignoring me for like 15 minutes (which i prefer in any case) she turns to me and says "YOU DONT LISTEN TO MUSIC DURING A FAMILY DINNER." the fuck? so i wait til she's not looking and thread my earphone through my jumper. ive already lost my appetite by this point.
the food comes, we start etc but she notices im not eating much and she asks me why. i tell her im not hungry and yknow what she does? she goes into some suuuupernatural rage about how i GOTTA RUIN THINGS EVERY TIME WE GO OUT! or how i DONT CARE ABOUT ANYONES FEELINGS! how its always ME ME ME, WHAT I WANT, HOW I FEEL, HOW I LOOK, WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK ABOUT ME ME ME ME ME! and then she yells that i can be a "dumb anorexic" if i want, so i grab the keys and go to wait in the car, telling the waitress on the way out to put my penne in a takeaway box. we probably drove home in silence, but i wasnt paying much attention to anything but my game of vortex.
whatta fun night. i always look forward to spending time with mumzy :D
/ choolie.
saturday, november 8, 2k8
10:10pm.
Saturday, November 8, 2008
sixtythree.
